So I have a dilemma. I want to hear yalls opinions. As a youtuber people be like "ur a blessing to mankind" ...I dont want to hear that shit today, I want ur honesty.
So recently I was forced (long story) to put up a trailer to the daily vlogs my boyfriend and I will be putting out this fall. The video has gone viral! Everyone is very excited about it and my youtube channel is growing like crazy now. BUT im having second thoughts.
I HATE relationship vlogs, I feel like they put too much pressure on their relationship and the relationships of their followers. I feel like they are bragging to single people. I feel like it shames single people's lifestyle choices. THE LIST GOES ON.
So you're probably asking yourself...then why you doin it bitch? Because when I looked up "black gay couple" on youtube...their was no vlogs and I mean ZERO. I instantly thought of all the millions of black gay kids who have made the same search and found nothing...and that made me very sad. The reason I know I can accomplish my goals is because ive seen people who look like me accomplish similar goals.
I also dont think people understand how lonely it is to be black and gay. Other races assume ur a criminal and ur own race assumes your a demon spawn from hell. I decided to ignore my personal annoyances with the couple vlog genre. Why? Because, The first chat room I ever was in when I was like 14. I announced I was gay and the first comment-er said "ur black and gay...u know ur going to get AIDS and die right?" I believed him, because that's all I saw on my TV.
So basically I decided to do this because I want to show young black gay boys that, that is not true and you can have any kind of life you want. On the other hand I feel odd about putting my relationship on display.
So now you see what im dealing with. Help me please? Seriously say anything I need to hear yalls opinions.